Favorite Quotes

Here are a plethora of some of my favorite quotes-- I will be continually updating it, and adding more quotes! :)


In the end, love always wins. Destroy of mind, destroy of body, but you can not destroy the heart!-> "Fuck You (An Ode to Noone)" by The Smashing Pumpkins "The simplest way that I can understand therapy is that we're born a certain way, we're taught to be something different, and we spend our whole lives trying to unravel it and ultimately align ourselves with who we really are. Life, experiences, traumas -- whatever -- they all add up to make you some altered version of what you are. So there's this battle that goes on between what you are and what you become, and it's been very important for me to unravel what I was taught to be or what I became. and to draw a direct parallel to music -- the closer I get back to being who I really am, the stronger the music gets, because I think what talent I do have is connected to that person, it's not a manipulative process, it's intuitive. You can learn about chords and guitars, but there's a piece of you that makes it individual, and it's been a slow process for me to become whatever it is that I'm supposed to be." -- Billy Corgan "The mystery of love is greater than the mystery of death."~ Oscar Wilde "Nothing is true and everything is permitted." "Your basic person wants to talk about material culture, internet culture. I think about God, cats, nature."-- Billy Corgan I can tell u all, that the world is in deep shit and needs some help!!!!!!!!!--> my friend, Drew Don't worry about people from your past-- there's a reason why that they didn't make it to your future! "Be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful to you." -Ovid "Technically, we all are alone."- Billy Corgan Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something. -- H. Jackson Brown, Jr. "Travel the world, traverse the skies Your home is here within my heart"-- Stand Inside Your Love by The Smashing Pumpkins If there is a God I know he likes to rock He likes his loud guitars And he is spiders from Mars.... Because I'm down here throwing stones While you're so far from home "If There Is a God" by The Smashing Pumpkins "Cry, Cry, Cry," by Billy Corgan Cry, cry, cry for the brave and her passioned soldiers Cry for the soul unsheltered from the storm Cry for me, for I've lost my heart Cry for yourself, unlucky to have been born Cry out of anger, but don't cry of despair For the world doesn't cry They don't care "The ideal husband is unmarried"- Oscar Wilde "I know what it feels like to wake up and want to go right back to bed. So anyone who's feeling that way now, I'm down with you. You've got to have faith that it will end, you know."--> Kevin Cadogan "Man Calm down, don't get mad I don't need your sistah (But supposin' she said she loves me) Would you still love her Or would you dismiss her? What is pure? Who is Pure? Is it a European state of being, I'm not sure..." "Fear of the Black Planet" by Public Enemy

Psychology and the Social Sciences

In one of the courses that I am currently taking this semester, Abnormal Psychology (at Mt. Holyoke College-- for those of you that are not familiar with my school, we have a consortium with other neighboring colleges, so we can take courses at the other schools and cross register), I had to write a paper supporting whether or not I agreed with Jane Murphy's article, "Psychiatric Labeling in Cross-Cultural Perspective: Similar kinds of disturbed behavior appear to be labeled abnormal in diverse cultures," on the idea of whether mental illness was universal or not (she criticized realtivism in psychopathology, towards the notion that the behavior considered "crazy," as well as other categories of "mental illness," is different in each culture), specifically on the labeling theory. She did the cross cultural survey between two "Non Western" cultures, the Eskimos of Alaska; and the Yorubas of Nigeria.
Upon initially reading this, I became very excited and enlightened. Why? I am getting so sick of people blaming the west for everything, which includes psychology. Non western cultures and countries are also human like westerners, hence they are also responsible for the atrocities and marginilization that occurs where they are.
(Unfortunatly I am defending the west, since my culture, according to society, has assimilated with white, American mainstream culture-- I personally don't identify as "white" but as Jewish-- and a fuck you to all that want to disagree with me, and tell me that I am not who I am; and much peace, love and respect to those that believe in me! :) )

   As a child and teenager, I was always interested in meeting people who were outcasts in their society, since I always was, always having a lot of trouble fitting in. It really irritated me when I would meet foreginers, and they would all fit in with their own circle; I never saw any of them within their own group being excluded (examples: Summer 2003, when I went to Kutz Camp, and all of the Israelies had their own group-- none of the Israelies seem to be outcasts towards one another-- they all seemed to get along fine; same with the increasing immigrant Albanian population at my high school--they all seemed to be best friends. I remember trying to acquaint myself with them, sometimes eating lunch with them, but all they would do was maybe  introduce me, and then go on speaking Albanian, as if I never existed).

      So from my previous experiences, it made me excited to see a scholarly article on how we are all similar, and how outcasts like myself DO EXIST  in every cutlture.

       However, once I had read the article, and I had to write an essay on it, and reflect what  her essay was about, along with the crucial points that she made in her article, I became very critical of the methods she went out about the study; the language that she used to describe the other culture, and also, possible behaviors or language that may be viewed as degrading or offensive to the people that she did the studies on (Orientalism).

    First, when she went about doing her research on the Eskimos, she did not interact with the people directly-- is was through key informant information. I feel that it is imperative to work with the people in a study first hand. Knowing the language is a plus, since it will help you understand the people better. Also, when languages get translated through someone else, the maybe mis translated; misinterpreted, or their initial meaning maybe lost (well at least within the case for Lacan! :P). Instead she had someone else translate and do the work for her, which I did not like.

     My professor thought that I was being too critical. For the first time in my life, I had never had a professor or teacher tell me that I was being too critical in a paper. It had always been quite  the converse. At Hampshire, I had too many professors tell the me that I am not being critical enough, especially in the Social Sciences. Some almost to the point of trying to force their critical biases down my throat.

     I had a lengthy conversation with my professor at Mount Holyoke about the paper. Although, I did miss discussing some critical points that Ms. Jane Murphy brought up, such as psychosis, neurosis and and anti-social behavior in American (and possibly Western Society as a whole) via punishment, and compare that to the Eskimos and Yoruba cultures. 

   The professor then brought up how the Eskimo and Yoruba cultures are "primitive." I stopped in my tracks. I knew that calling a certain culture "primitive" can be seen as offensive or degrading (which some social scientists refer to as "Orientalism," coined officially by the late Columbia University Professor, Edward Said). This idea of using the word "primitive" to describe certain cultures, was brought up several times within the last year at Hampshire (I can't remember where I first learned it-- maybe in some of my Social Science courses; maybe during Action Awareness week; maybe during an activism event that  I went to). I didn't want to tell him that I think that what he said was offensive, since I didn't want to be rude, and come off to him as being even more critical and arguementative. 

        I discussed with my advisor at Hampshire (who works in the Social Sciences; spefically in the Political Sciences, with a focus on China), on what my Mount Holyoke Professor had said about describing certain cultures as "primitive." She agreed with me, that that type of language used, and certain methods that Jane Murphy used in her study could be seen as different as Orientalist discourse. Hopefully she will help in re-writing how parts  Jane Murphy's study maybe seen as a Orientalism. 

      But then  I thought about the use of word "primitive."--> Can't it have several meanings? Did my professor mean it in a bad way? I need to be sensitive towards his feelings as well. I imagine that he was just trying to use the word "primitive" to describe these two non-industrialized societies. People coming from a western society may see it as "primitive" since they no longer use those methods of lifestyle in their own society, and have progressed onto something more "advanced," to sustain themselves within their own society/culture. Maybe using the term "primitive" may have some good connotations as well. I like how words can have more than one meaning, and you can use it however which way you like.

     We must also take into that the Yorubas in Nigeria (for example), live in a tropical area, and do not need all of these industrial advances for the most part. They live in a climate that has a lot of natural resources (I don't know enough about Nigerian geography, and what types of plants and crops are native to the land/grow there), but I think that it is safe to say so, and agreeable weather, in which there is no need to devise different machines/structures. (From what I have learned in my history courses, the Industrial Revolution, which began in Manchester, England, during the mid-nineteenth century, was based on trying to get more efficient machines that would help society since they lived in a colder climate;  had far fewer time to grow crops, due to the seasons--> Again, I realize that my arguement towards the Industrial Revolution is a cop out, but this is how I perceive it in a "brief nutshell" as they say).

     I think that we need to understand everyone's arguements and use of language. We need to understand and heed to the feelings and needs of all people.

 On and on, the main arguement  and question that I am trying to postulate from here, is "Are psychologists good researchers in the Social Sciences?" I am asking this, since my advisor (who is a professor in the Social Sciences), said so. I want to see how valid or not this is.

Love 

Stephanie :)

 

Vice President Joe Biden Announces Kareem Dale As Special Assistant to the President for Disability Policy

This makes me really happy the Obama administration has done what no other US President has done:

  Appoint a Special Assistant for Disability Policy! :D 

   One of my friends was telling me how Obama is  the first President to address disability rights (If you think about former Presidents that had a disability, like Roosevelt, tried to hide it, and tried to fit into mainstream society as much as possible).

    It is about time that America realizes that it's ok to be who we are, and us people with "disabilities" should always be proud of who we are and smiling! :)

Blessings 

Stephanie 

Vice President Joe Biden Announces Kareem Dale As Special Assistant to the President for Disability Policy

THE WHITE HOUSE

Office of the Vice President
________________________
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
February 12, 2009

VICE PRESIDENT JOE BIDEN ANNOUNCES KAREEM DALE AS SPECIAL ASSISTANT TO THE PRESIDENT FOR DISABILITY POLICY

First Time a President has had a Special Assistant Focused Exclusively on Disability Policy

BOISE, ID – Vice President Joe Biden today announced Kareem Dale as Special Assistant to the President for Disability Policy. The Vice President, who was leading a Presidential Delegation at the 2009 Special Olympics World Winter Games in Boise, Idaho, made the announcement during a stop at the Special Olympics’ Healthy Athletes Event, a worldwide program in which athletes receive a variety of health screenings and services.

"The commitment that the President and I have to Special Olympics and people with disabilities is deep and abiding. And we are backing up those words with real action at the White House,"said Vice President Biden.  "This is our first step to ensure that we have a strong advocate for people with disabilities at the highest levels of our Administration."

Dale, who is partially blind, will have direct access to the President in this role and he will coordinate the Administration’s efforts to see that people with disabilities are on a level playing field with all Americans.

Originally from Chicago, Illinois, Dale previously served as the National Disability Director for the Obama for America campaign.  He also served on the Arts Policy Committee and the Disability Policy Committee for then-Senator Obama. 

Dale graduated from the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign with a Bachelor's degree in Advertising in May 1995.  He received his JD/MBA in May 1999 from the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, graduating Cum Laude. While attending law school, Dale was also active in community service, including serving as president of two organizations, the Black Law Students' Association and Open Forum.

Nerd Love

   "Nerd Love"

    by Stephanie Chase 

Nerd Love

Everything was clear, even without me glasses

Time was running out for me.

Minutes tearing into ‘em seconds

Seconds almost ready to explode

For I never experienced such a love ever!

I have searched all the ends of the earth, only to be with you.

I wait on the hard cement

Forlorn, hoping, waiting forever, anxious

The only thing that exists in me

Is the serenity of a fine young lad that I just met

Your impression was the greatest, never had I ever met

Such soft, pale skin; robust at ye cheeks

The most pale green eyes

The only sea that I had ever seen be green

But beautiful, I felt I was sucked into him.

I have searched all the ends of the earth, only to be with you.

A miracle!

It must have been a gift from G-D, the heavens above

For all of a sudden, I see ye walking merrily

 Alas,

The love! Laughing 

Noting the beauties of nature, as ye chuckle at some squirrels playing together

I have searched all the ends of the earth, only to be with you.

I wear my cute smile.

I try to wave, but I don’t know if ye see me, or I’m too shy.

My ride comes, and ye are vanished forever.

I am falling down a cliff, stumbling, losing everything that I gained

To find you

I am back to where I started

Only hoping to find you through the forest of my awkwardness

And spontaneity of life.

I have searched the ends of the earth, only to be with you.

My pensive thoughts and lements for the dead mouse (it is a Very Short Story!)

A trail of blood covered the ground. My eyes followed each droplet until it came to this object. I jumped. Lying on the smoothly, paved, creme- colored sidewalk laid a dead mouse. My intial instict would be to run away,  but instead I remained where I was. Myeyes focused on the dead corpse.

       The mouse's tail was shaped like a spiral noodle. I wondered if its tail was ever straight. I  continued to investigate it. I then thought to myself, "More animals and insects  die than people do per day. When a person dies, a few people show up at their funeral to honor them for the things that they have done; but when an animal dies, an innocent, little mouse, no one stops to lament, honor or remember the mouse at all. The world does not care. I then realized that I must mourn for this mouse if no one else would.

     An autumn breeze blew, as the mouse's tail rattled. I attempted to look even more closely than I had ever, trying to contemplate over what it must be like to be a mouse. What was its soul like? Another breeze blew. I realized that I had to be on my way to visit Kim. I blew a kiss to the mouse, which swayed into the breeze.

Saudi Arabia appoints first female minister

This is probably some of the best news that I have heard all day! :)

I really hope that she will be an inspiration for ALL WOMEN EVERYWHERE! :)



http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2009/feb/16/saudi-cabinet-woman-min...

Saudi Arabia appoints first female minister
BY Julian Borger




An expert on girls' education became Saudi Arabia's first woman minister on Saturday as part of a wide-ranging cabinet reshuffle by King Abdullah that swept aside several bastions of ultra-conservatism.

Nora bint Abdullah al-Fayez, a US-educated former teacher, was made deputy education minister in charge of a new department for female students, a significant breakthrough in a country where women are not allowed to drive.

"This is an honour not only for me but for all Saudi women. In the presence of a comprehensive operational team, I believe I'll be able to face challenges and create positive change," she told Arab News. Fayez said she would study the state of girls' education in Saudi Arabia before commenting on the task before her.

In his first reshuffle since assuming the throne in 2005, King Abdullah also replaced two powerful enemies of reform, the chief of the Saudi religious police, Sheikh Ibrahim al-Ghaith, and the country's most senior judge, Sheikh Salih Ibn al-Luhaydan. Ghaith, who runs the commission for the promotion of virtue and the prevention of vice, known as the mutawa, which enforces bans on alcohol and drugs, has gained a reputation for brutality. Luhaydan ruled last year that it was permissible to kill owners of satellite television channels broadcasting "immoral" programmes. Several other hardline judges were sacked as part of a challenge against the kingdom's hardline religious establishment.

The grand Ulema commission, an influential grouping of religious scholars, will be reconfigured and opened to moderate clerics, breaking the grip of the ultra-conservatives.

King Abdullah also appointed a new head of a 150-seat consultative body, the Shura council, and replaced his ministers of education, health, justice and information.

Abdul Aziz al-Khoja, the new information minister, said: "The most important thing is that the kingdom's voice should reach the entire world, convey the message of peace and stability and portray the kingdom's stance of moderation, tolerance and flexibility."

He told the Saudi Gazette he was open to debate with the country's journalists and intellectuals, adding: "I welcome their opinions and suggestions because they constitute the pillar of the Saudi media and represent the shining face of the country within and outside the kingdom."

The reshuffle was broadly welcomed in the Saudi press, with the Saudi Gazette calling it a "boost for reform" and al-Hayat describing the changes as "bold reform".

Saudi schools have long been criticised as breeding grounds for extremism, and the monarchy's western allies are likely to claim the reshuffle as a sign that the kingdom has the capacity to reform itself.

"This is the true start of the promises of reform," said Jamal Khashoggi, editor of al-Watan newspaper. "They bring not only new blood, but also new ideas."

I feel the excitement and the revolution that Chavez is making.
Granted, I don't know enough about him, but from what I have read, he seems to be "by the people, for the people."
I know this is a stupid question, but did Venezuela just have an election?
(My knowledge is limited, but I have a great hunger and thirst to learn more about Latin America-- a continent that I hope to explore someday, and it looks pretty promising in the forseeable future! :) ).

Blessings

Stephanie

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2009/feb/17/hugo-chavez-venezuela-referendum

Victorious Chávez promises action on crime and services as he sets sights on ruling beyond 2030

Hugo Chávez has vowed to advance his "Bolivarian revolution" after winning a referendum to abolish presidential term limits, boosting his ambition to rule Venezuela for decades.

The president declared a renewed mandate for his effort to transform the Opec country into a socialist state fused with the spirit of Simón Bolívar, South America's 19th century liberator.

"Those who voted yes today voted for socialism, for revolution," Chávez told cheering supporters outside the presidential palace in Caracas on Sunday night.

Electoral authorities said 54% of voters in Sunday's referendum backed a constitutional amendment allowing indefinite re-election, with 46% rejecting it - a margin of almost 1 million voters.

Chávez, 54 and a decade in power, signalled he will run again when his term ends in 2013. He has spoken of ruling beyond 2030. Unlike previous ideology-infused victory addresses, his speech on Sunday promised improved governance - a concession to complaints about crime, uncollected rubbish and creaking public services.

"We must revise everything we have done in previous years, we have to start rectifying, adjusting, strengthening. If we reinforce what we have already done, then starting next year we will be in a much better position to open new horizons."

The opposition accepted defeat, but complained that the president had hijacked state resources and hobbled the no campaign. "It was David against Goliath, and Goliath won," said Leopoldo López, an opposition leader.

One of the first to congratulate Chávez was his mentor, Fidel Castro, who from his sickbed in Cuba commended a victory that was "impossible to measure". Bolivia, Nicaragua, Honduras and other regional allies also congratulated Chávez.

The EU commission "noted" the result, but conservative members of the European parliament accused Chávez of eroding democracy. A Spanish MEP, Luis Herrero, was expelled from Caracas last week after he called him a dictator and questioned the referendum's fairness.

The US made no immediate comment but the Obama administration will be dismayed that a fierce critic of Washington "imperialism" has been emboldened.

Celebrating government supporters in red T-shirts filled the streets of Caracas, but the rapture may ebb if tumbling oil revenues squeeze spending on social programmes, which have bolstered the president's popularity.

Some analysts predict stagflation and devaluation of the bolívar currency ... the kind of grim cycle that undid previous Venezuelan leaders. "With plummeting revenues and widespread dissatisfaction with government performance, Chávez will be far from invincible," said Michael Shifter, of the Inter-American Dialogue thinktank.

The government said it had enough reserves to tide Venezuela over until oil prices recovered.

On Supporting the US Troops

 While I am against the war in Iraq and Afghanistan (while I feel that attacking Afghanistan was somewhat justified, I still don't know enough nor am well versed to make a good opinion on the war;  there is a lot I need to learn to understand Afghanistan; however half of the weapons they are fighting with, we gave them to fight with against the Soviets, so if you think about it, it's kind of ironic that we are fighting against them in a sense), I  do support the troops. I feel that many make so many sacrifices to make other peoples' lives better. And we need to focus on their intentions for joining the military; many join to protect other people. 

        

    My older brother joined the US Navy after 9-11 with the intentions to protect his nation. He had already gone to college, but wanted to give back to his countries all of the oppurtunities that he was given.  My brother even came from a priveledged back ground, and to see someone from a priveledged background do that deserves all of my respect.

      My older brother is currently in Afghanistan, and it was his 29th birthday the other day. I really hope that it was one of his best days in Afghanistan, since he is thousands of miles away from his family, friends in loved ones, in a very depressing place. That is my one wish.

     I am writing this out of good will to thank all of the soldiers that have sacrificed their time, and know that I am thinking about them, and they all have a very special place in my heart.

    I am getting sick of people thinking that soldiers have it easy, or are bad people. They're not. They all have a heart and soul and are people too. Some of the nicest people I have met have been in the military.

Here is something that I found to give people a "food for thought" about what it's like to be in the military, and the struggles that they have to go through:

____________________

You stay up for 16 hours

They stay up for days on end.
_________________________

You take a warm shower to help you wake up.

They go days or weeks without running water.
__________________________

You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.

They get shot at as others are hit, and keep moving forward.
__________________________

You put on your "Code Pink" t-shirt and go meet up with your friends.

They still fight for your right to wear that shirt.
__________________________

You talk trash about your "friends" who are not with you.

They know they may not see some of their buddies again.
__________________________

You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls/guys.

They patrol the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.
_________________________

You complain about how hot it is.

They wear their heavy gear, not daring to take off their helmet to wipe their brow.
__________________________

You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.

They may not get to eat today.
__________________________

Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.

They wear the same things for weeks, but makes sure their weapons are clean.
__________________________

You go to the mall and get your hair redone.

They don't have time to brush their teeth today.
__________________________

You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.

They're told they will be held over an extra 2 months.
__________________________

You call your boyfriend/girlfriend and set a date for tonight.

They wait for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.
__________________________

You hug and kiss your girlfriend/boyfriend, like you do everyday.

They hold their letters close and smell their loves' perfume/cologne.
__________________________

You roll your eyes as a baby cries.

They get a letter with pictures of their new child, and wonder if they'll ever meet
__________________________

You criticize the military, and say that war never solves anything.

They see the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers why they are fighting.
__________________________

You hear the jokes about war, and make fun of men/women like him/her.

They hear the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.
__________________________

You see only what the media wants you to see.

They see the broken bodies lying around them.
__________________________

You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.

They do exactly what they are told.
__________________________

You stay at home and watch TV.

They take whatever time they are given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.
__________________________

You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.

They try to sleep but get woken up by mortars and helicopters all night long. __________________________

You sit there and judge them, saying the world is probably a worse place because of people like them

If only there were more people like them
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Technology and how it dominates us, and how it has made society its slave

"Your basic person wants to talk about material culture, internet culture. I think about God, cats, nature."-- Billy Corgan

 After being away  for some time,  I have begun to discover how much the computer  dominates our lives, and how so many people have succumb to it.

   It just really saddens me how the only way that people want to communicate with others is through an electronic medium.  I have met people on facebook who think that I am the coolest person ever, and become obsessed over me, telling me that we are going to be best friends; cook together; go to protests together; do things that best friends do. I met one of these  so called "friends" at an activist meeting, and this friend acted so distant. I know that I was critical towards the topic that was brought up, but I wanted to understand both sides of the issue that was being brought up. 

  I really don't care what others think, since I am a free thinker. I know who I am.  Maybe they don't, and they need me as a sort of way to identify with themselves, and as a medium to channel their identity.

    Maybe I am just as lost as everyone else in this world. But aren't we all? We're all floating around the universe, trying to find answers that only lead to asking more; our minds change; our perspectives change; people change us; we grow; we mature;  society changes us; we have to conform to point where we have no idea who we were in the first place.

       But  what really irks me is when I hang out with people, and instead of talking with me face to face, all they want to do is go onto instant messenger, facebook chat and converse with friends on different issues, ideas, needs, priorities, etc. I just get really frustrated when this happens, since I feel that I am not important, not worth their time. Plus, I have the rest of my life and can go onto facebook, instant messenger or  youtube any time. When I hang out with people, I want to talk to them, eye to eye, heart to heart. I want to hear people's stories-- what do you want to do? How do you want to change the world? What are you passionate about? What do you think of love? Do you love people?  What do you think of life? 

       I will never know whom you are, unless we talk in person.

     Some of the people that I was hanging out with not long ago were just interested in watching crap on tv, such as reality tv shows. There was this one reality tv show, that my peers were watching called "The Principles Office," which is about kids getting sent to the principle's office, mostly for the most ludacris reasons. And I mean, it wasn't just one or two episodes that they watched. It was more like eight or nine. It was rediculous. They all went out to party afterwords, I went to bed. I just was too sleepy. Everyone seems too fixated on partying. I can't take it. 

    I feel like people these days don't want to get to  one another. Let's get drunk, fuck eachother, and  we still don't know who the hell we are. 

         Plus I am on a tight budget, and I can't waste my money on alcohol. (Seriously, the last time that I had alchohol was in September, and even then I couldn't even finish the  can of beer. I've never really been that much of a big fan of alcohol).

      People seem to hung up on their blackberry phones,  to the point where they might as well be that sort of electronic medium, and no longer exist as a human being.

     But you know what I say? Fuck 'em. I still have a heart and a goodwill for others. I want to live life to the fullest and have to succumb to these fake, artificial materialistic cultures that everyone is subscribing too.

"You Move Me" by Amber

I really feel moved by the artist, Amber, and her work.

Especially her new song, "You move me." 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KbaqWJLfahY&feature=channel_page

There is something uplifting about it. It is pretty reflective of myself, in the same manner that she portrays herself.

   Independent woman; knows what she wants in life and won't and  will not put up with any shit.

 It's about being open about what I want. Lately, the only person that I have been dependent on is myself.

    I know what I want and I will work hard to get it.

    I won't let people deter me. (Whatever it may be ).

    It feels great to be liberated and not have to live under how the world thinks I should be, or have to conform to other people's opinions.

       I am beautiful and empowered.

The One Good Thing that George W. Bush did for people with disabilities

Although  George W. Bush's time in office is up, and although  I am/was not a fan of him when he was in office regarding how he ruled the country (I don't know what he  is like in person, but like every other human being, he has a heart and a soul), he did do one  good thing:

     He amended the Americans With Disabilities Act in October of 2008:

http://www.eeoc.gov/ada/amendments_notice.html

Today I went to a protest in response to the violence in Gaza

Hi all!
Today I went to a protest to end the violence in Gaza.
I decided to go since I am against the War Crimes that Israel has committed (when the bombing began, I really felt that it was out of the blue-- I felt that there was no justification, since there had been a ceasefire, no? But I reports from several newsources have been really nebulous over who did what to break it, since let's face it-- this conflict is VERY complex).

I wanted to go and show my solidarity and support for the people that have died; been injured and have suffered losses on BOTH sides. As a citizen of the earth, I refuse to leave or turn my back to anyone.
I created a poster that read:
" Two Peoples: One heart, one dream, one love. We are Together On this! Jews and Arabs Refuse to be enemies!"
I created two heart one with an Israeli flag, and the other with a Palestinian flag. They both intersected, and they showed two fists together. Above it, I drew two people holding hands, representating trust, solidarity and love.
I realized that my agenda may be different, but I still wanted to go and make a difference.
People were really friendly and helpful. I saw many of my friends there. I met a lot of people from the local Arab and Muslim communitites. Many people asked to take a picture of my poster.
I began to chant a song singing, "NO more hate! Teach our children not to hate!" And then I began to sing, "Love, love.. we need love! A love revolution!"
A Muslim woman began to sing with me. It felt great to feel the solidarity with her and the love. It felt great to be with so many people that care about helping the oppressed in the Middle East.
We came to the center of town, and a few students and activists began to give speaches. Some random guy in the car sped buy and screamed "Fuck you all." A few minutes later, he came out and was ready to have a fight with a few people and yelled "Fuck you all! I hope Israel kills all of you!"

I felt really scared. For the first moment in my life, I came to realize that anyone can commit something bad (Read the Zimbardo Experiment). Violence does not belong to a certain, group, race, nationality, political affiliation, ethnic origin, ability, etc.
I came to realize that I am no different from an Arab, Palestinian or a Muslim. We are more alike than we think.

I did feel a little uncomfortable hearing people scream into the microphone (to add a lot of emotion), but it intimidated me. I guess I never liked yelling nor seeing instability, but maybe it just reminds me of a few things when growing up. I guess I don't like anger, aggression and hate, because you are giving into the people that oppress you.
I don't believe that anything is bad-- just the actions that people and institutions do.

I know many people may think that I am a dreamer, and being really unrealistic and out of touch with reality like John Lennon, but I have hope. I believe in love and peace (as much of a cliche as it sounds), and I believe in the end, it will dominate everything.

Love and light

Stephanie Terra I went to a protest in response to the violence in Gaza

Curvation! :)

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God bless curvations! :)

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Finally, I don't have to day dream about getting  a smaller shape, in order to fit into Victoria's Secret Lingere! 

Article and personal opinion on the violence in Gaza and Southern Israel, and the hate that has spewed throughout the planet

 I just read an article online which talked about how a lot of hatred and anti-semitic attacks are being targeted towards the Jewish community of Paris, France, and other European countries, due to Israel's destructive, inhumane war crimes happening in Gaza.
This really breaks my heart to see this. It really saddens me to see Jews in Europe being targeted for crimes that they did not commit in Gaza. I understand that a lot of Arabs and Muslims (I hate labeling, but this is where a lot of the confusion is occurring), equating all Jews as militiant zionists, which is a dangerous thing to do. It would be like equating all Muslims and Arabs as terrorists, which is also not true.
I call forth an end to the violence.
While I feel nervous about being a target for being Jewish, I can't let this stand in the way. I am proud of my heritage, culture and faith and I REFUSE to let anyone belittle me. Events like these are the REASONS why we need dialogue, and mobilize action to the governments, in order to stop the violence, which is a breeding ground for hatred in the other parts of the world. War has never benefitted humanity-- it has only created lies, hatred and rumors that are not true about the latter.
I may be a lone soldier on a battefield, but having confidence in myself makes me feel like a million soldiers.
I plan to go to a protest this weekend near my school. I am devising a poster that I am going to wear, that is entitled:
Two Peoples: One Heart: One Love: End the Violence in Gaza and Sderot.
There will be two hearts together, and in the middle there will be a fist interlocking both in solidarity. I understand that people may see it as weird that I am advocating for both sides, but I refuse to not turn my back on anyone. I am here for ALL people.
I refuse to see an injustice happen to a Jewish brethen over a crime that they did not do. The same for my Palestinian brethen in Gaza for crimes that they did not do.

Love and light
Stephanie :)



Article:


www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/europe/4142583/Gaza-killi...



Gaza killing sparks attacks on Jews across Europe
Israel's invasion of Gaza has provoked a surge in anti-Semitic violence across Europe with attacks on Jewish sites in France, Belgium and Britain.


By Henry Samuel in Paris
Last Updated: 5:09PM GMT 06 Jan 2009

In France, home to Europe's biggest Arab and Jewish populations, unidentified attackers rammed a car into the gate outside a synagogue in the southern city of Toulouse late on Monday and set it on fire with a petrol bomb.

No-one was hurt, but it has revived memories of a sharp upturn in anti-Semitic crimes in 2000, with the outbreak of the second intifada or Palestinian uprising against Israeli occupation. In 2002, as fighting raged in the Middle East and Afghanistan prior to the allied invasion of Iraq, some 2,300 Jews left France for Israel because they felt unsafe.

Interior Minister Michele Alliot-Marie said: "I am, in fact, worried by the international situation. My concern is that the situation should not degenerate in our country, that the violence not be imported."

President Nicolas Sarkozy, currently on a peace mission to the Middle East, condemned the synagogue attack.

In a statement issued by the Elysée, he said France would "not tolerate international tensions translating into violence between communities."

Leila Shahid, the Palestinian envoy to the European Union, said there was undoubtedly a link between the attack and fury among France's five million Muslims at "images from Gaza".

On Saturday, a pro-Palestinian demonstration turned violent, with a mob of around 500 protesters burning cars and looting a Paris jewellers.

France's Union of Jewish Students has recorded two attacks on kosher stores in Bordeaux, one on a Jewish apartment in Paris and another on a synagogue in Toulon since New Year's Eve.

"We insist the public authorities quickly investigate these warning signs of a new wave of anti-Semitic acts on our doorstep," said the Jewish community's Central Consistory.

Similar incidents have also been reported in Belgium, where a Molotov cocktail was thrown at a synagogue in Brussels on Monday.

No injuries were reported, but the building sustained damage.

Joods Actueel, a Jewish magazine, has received a dozen death threats including those by an anonymous man who threatened a suicide attack to "avenge the suffering of the Palestinians". A Jewish home was firebombed over the weekend.

In Britain, one Jewish charity, the Community Security Trust, or CST, has reported 24 anti-Semitic incidents in the past week; the most serious occurred on Saturday when three youths tried to set fire to Brondesbury Park Synagogue in northwest London. The CST said that the threat had increased after calls from Hamas leaders to attack Jewish people around the world

Social Construction- What is normal?

Greetings to everyone!
I hope that this message finds everyone in good health.
I have been really happy lately, and have been enjoying the quiet, New England winter weather. It's so beautful outside. I have gotten inspired by the rays of the sun, the relfection of the snow and the solitude. I have created so much romaniticism. I hope to feel this way forever.
I was inspired by Will Ferrell's beautiful singing in "Por Ti." I began to sing it this afternoon, while I was cleaning up in the kitchen at my faher's office after lunch. As I went out of the room and I went an octave higher, my older sister commented saying "You sound so weird," (since it was sudden). "People are going to think you're weird and not hang with you." She has been saying this to me about my behavior. The way I present myself. Every time we hang out, there is always something that she needs to criticize about me. The other night, when I went to my brother in laws mother's house (my sister's husband), I was just passionatly talking about diseases and how they "breed" around college campuses, since there are so many people (yes meningitis-- I was reading online about how this 1 year old girl in New Zealand developed it, and she had to get all of her apendages amputated). I was going to bring up the story about the little girl from New Zealand who had meningitis and ask how she got it (I mean I did not get my meningitis vaccination until I was 18, and I will probably be having children someday, and I would not like for them to get meningitis, so I want to do my best to prevent them from getting it). I always get very energetic, inquisitive and happy when I talk about something that I am inquisitive about.
My older sister saw me getting hyper. She then said lightly whispered, "That's enough Steph, stop monopolizing teh conversation." This was the last thing that I was going to talk about.
Earlier that same day, my father decided to take Charlotte and I out for lunch. I had just seen a really interesting show on the travel channel. One of the episodes was about all of these really unique ice cream shops across the US. Another episode was about steak shops. The other was about donuts (and it turns out that one of them they showed is located in Massachusetts, just right outside of Boston! :D). Here are the links to them if you are interested:
http://www.travelchannel.com/Travel_Ideas/Food_and_Wine/Ice_Cream_Paradise

http://www.travelchannel.com/Travel_Ideas/Food_and_Wine/Donut_Paradise


http://www.travelchannel.com/Travel_Ideas/Food_and_Wine/ci.Steak_Paradise.artTravelIdeasFmt?vgnextfmt=artTravelIdeasFmt

Anyways, I began to tell my father and my little sister about how much I loved the show and how I would love to check out some of these restaurants. Instead, my father and my sister both get annoyed, and tell me to stop talking. I really can't bear to stand that I can't even have a good conversation about something that I like. Most conversations with me are keeping out of trouble and making sure I stay afloat.
But back to my older sister Sharon. She then claimed that my singing makes other people feel uncomfortable, and made an analogy of my singing to someone getting undressed in public. This to me sounded ludacris. Getting undressed in public and singing out of the blue are polar opposites. I was not, have not and WILL NOT let her try to her anyone else think that what I am doing is socially unacceptable. To tell me that I am acting weird is socially constructed--created by someone with power, wanting society to immitate how they act.
Well what is normal? Normal is a state of mind. It's socially constructed. It's how you perceive the world. But the older I get, I come to realize that NO ONE is normal. So I almost feel like laughing when she tells me that I need to start acting normal. I've come to the point in my life wher I don't care what others think of me (with the exception of politics-- but then politics all comes down to the relationship between leaders, people with power-- not representative of myself nor anything that I have done in this life). I have goals, passions and love for myself, others and the world around me. I am positive-- I am not going to let someone's perception of me put me down. I am who I am-- if someone is not going to accept for who I am, then that' THEIR problem NOT mine. But even so, I wouldn't want to hang out with someone who was not going to accept certain parts of me.
People get to caught up on the little things.
I think the most important things that we should concentrate on are how peopel treat others and the earth; do they love others; can they learn to understand other people's pain? Do they go out to help others? End injustices?!
Now these are the things that matter. Not frettering over what is "normal."

Saddened to be a closed chapter in his life

Alive 
euphoria 
uplifting my mind 
thinking thoughts that were lost forever
they come to pages that you thought 
never existed 
charcoal through an existence 
the soul was never me 
I am a slave of reality 
my soul is lost, since I am a product 
it died several years ago
repetitive thought reflections of the brain
brain piano tapping 
clanging aliteration
rickus in me 
each heart beat a note 
for my heart is nothing but the lonely echo 
crying out load 
the fire cooking 
dinner is inside. don't come to close existance bites 
erractic core eats 
the basemnet where we belong 
for I burn 
tiger 
won't cease the power
for the power was never displayed 
the insides burned with a torch
for everything is now yours 
the appearance distance 
no one there 
spirit lost 
confusion won
the bear went home 
to nuzzle with itself 
only to find out that honey didn't exist anymore
for I am not apart of your future 
someone else is 
and I wonder if they no know about me 
and how fate was purpusley made to avoid me 
even when I wanted 
trust all sealed 
ripped but glue together 
recollection to my past 
THE machines bleak out styrofoam 
the same sounds are the same shits that you make for everyone else 
so it's all bullshit when you tell me that I am special 
I just want to fly 
Live life off the airplane 
Forget my fears 
be who I am I was wont' none won ... was one 
I want to bake your heart 
stich ¥øu from the storm 

I can't speak of anger because 
my heart cries out 
for I need to look out 
the weak and the breaved is not me 
For the heros have come 

I am on Mont Everset for I am number one, and am not ashamed to say it 
With the fist on top of myself
the world 
happy to be who I am for once in my life

Te amo

Billy Corgan Seven Questions

I am so happy!
I found my favorite video interview, with my favorite singer, Billy Corgan.
He brings up several golden rules which many people in today's world keep forgetting about. One was how people in today's world can't even do anything good to one another. If we have forgotten how to do the simple things of love and kindness, then what has today's world become?

Here is the video:

http://noolmusic.com/myspace_videos/billy_corgan_-_seven_questions.php


Love always,
Stephanie Terra

This is a test

This is just a test to see how well I write  my thoughts on the computer. Why is it that we write better when it is on paper? I avoided using e-mail for the longest time, since I felt that letter writing was becoming a lost art. But now I think that it serves me well that  I don’t ask for a friend’s address when I first meet them.  Since I hang out with sketchy people (and when I want to exchange information about certain political events, issues, etc), it’s probably a good idea to keep it just to e-mail. I don’t want people trying to stalk me (especially at my parent’s house). Speaking of y parents’ house, I  reflect back to how I  have been complaining to my mother about living in Worcester, and when will she plan to move. She keeps telling me “when the prices in the housing market go down.” I can’t believe how much a jerk I have been to my parents. I  live in a beautiful house, almost a hundred years; I have my own bedroom; my own lap top; my own bike; I have the opportunity to go own trips. I  am a lot more priveledged than my older brother and older sister, and I really resent it greatly that I have been given so much, that I feel that I most be traveling during certain times of the year. I was reading  one of my brother’s letters to my mother, thanking her for the money he gave to him, and pleaded for not to pay any more money claiming that the “heating bills most be very high.” He then sympathized with my mother about the situation in Israel, the Second Intifada. He  loathed Clinton’s  idea that both sides are guilty, and that we need to “find a common ground.”  He said that there is any (the Palestinian extremists) and we need to fight them off. What I have noticed that with Republicans, they have a mind set of seeing the world as “good and evil,” like the war against  good and evil. He went on about how

I keep distracted from writing on here, since all I want to do is look at pictures (photos that  I have taken).

 

 

 Aww the childhood reminiscence. I am listening to Spider webs by No Doubt. This song brings back memories  back in the 90s, when it make me really excited about being a teenager. I wish I still felt that way now. I hate how politics dominates my mind. I think of when I always wanted to go to California. I think that my first trip to England should have been when I was 9 or 10. That would  have been the perfect age. I was obsessed British men, their sexy accents. All of this initiated when  I became in love with John Lennon, after sitting next to his picture at the Hard Rock Café in New York. I remember coming in EXTREMELY hungry to NYC (since all I had to eat was raisins in the car, and I had been driving in the car with my father for 4 hours. I remember being really excited returning to NYC, since earlier that week I went there to drop Sharon off for her accepted students overnight at  Barnard College.

 And then there was the Austin Powers movie. I remember seeing the adds for the movie on the television, and being so excited to see the film. I knew that I needed to see this film, after seeing Mike Myer’s sexy  British accent,

   Something smells like spoiled milk on Hawaiian airlines.  I just came to realize how much I miss being a teenager and a child. Being twenty sucks. There are literally no social opportunities when I go out back home in Worcester, since the majority of the rock concerts you have to be either twenty and 

       I miss that really cute surfer dude that I met at  “Down to Earth” grocery store  out in Honolulu, I really liked his generic surfer voice, and dark skin. I asked him if he was a college student, and told me “Nawww.. I surf and that’s my life.” I asked him if he was Hawaiian, and he told me that

 

 I don’t feel as excited listening to these songs that I am listening to, as I used to. Madonna’s “Get into the Groove”  used to make me soo hyper, wishing that I had a jeep, and while I was listening to it, I would get out of  jeep, in a bikini with a cute boy friend, and  walking out into the sand with a surf board  on some beach in southern California.  

Love is not existant

Why is it that love does not exist?

Why do we romanicize about it?

It felt like it was the one soul thing that I lived for- breathed for— fate for me was destined for it

 You wait hours, days, months, years, lifetimes in that castle waiting for prince charming to arrive on horseback. But don’t dwell on it, because prince charming does not exist.

He only exists in our imaginiation.

The poison apple, consumed. Thoughts drowned…

  She was Edie Sedjewick….only wishing her Andy Warhol would love her……

What is the thing labrynth? The brain decays when hope has given up

 I had to conform to society- trust me, it was not my choice, but I had to in order to get on with my life. I am now a product of this disgusting society. I am not true to myself anymore

 I have lost myself. The leaves keep falling down, foiliating

With you, I felt that I was transcending. I was not becoming drained by this world. I could go to something new. 

Anything and anyone that reminds me of you puts me in complete bliss—every time I see a person that reminds me of you, please know that I  get a lump in my throat

I refuse to succumb to any man, because they are all the same. They are all animals. I never listen to them, because all they want to do is just one thing.

Thinking about reality is committing suicide.

 

The pain of a picture

The pain of a picture 

life smashes into pieces as the heart was thought to be one

but was not 

no more oxygen for me 

I can't think about it

I half smile since I love you

but  I can never let you know that  I love you

no never, since that only scares men off 

no one knows the answers

wish the brain wasn't that vulnerable oh well 

becomming washed up in the ebb and flow of the world

reality becomes choke

the silent, screaching pain that we never wanna hear